wisdom from michael scott. and musings.

SO I HAVE TRIED MULTIPLE TIMES TO ADD PARAGRAPH BREAKS TO THIS POST AND IT WON'T LET ME... Super super super annoying..... There are supposed to be multiple paragraphs in this post...... UGH. Michael Scott quote of the day: "It just goes to show that everything you want in life you get. You can't work for it. It just comes to you." (from Season 7:PDA). Oh man, Michael is so wise (LOL!). What is The Office going to be like without him? I can't imagine the show without Michael, part of me just wants them to end the series all together. We shall wait and see... So I haven't posted a real blog in quite awhile, all i've had time for lately is quick/funny youtube clips (which are obviously awesome), but not quite as substantive as a real blog. I am going to try and remedy that right now, although I don't have tons of time to write because I need to change and head to Peace soon. 7 weeks of grad school left. AAHHH!! That is so crazy, I can't believe I have done almost 3 years of this program and all that's left is 7 weeks. About 60% of me is super relieved to be done with my masters, and done with the drama of school and projects and papers, etc... The other 40% is stressed and starting to be scared shitless of my life without school. Being a student is part of my identity; I love school, love academics, love writing papers. I love the regularity and normalcy of school, I love having breaks. I have been a student continuously since I was basically three years old, so I cannot imagine my life without school. What is going to fill my time and my brain? Along with the end of school comes a major life transition. Finding a "real job" (i.e. full time job that actually utilizes my degree), the possibility of being unemployed for awhile while I find this aforementioned job. Missing being able to get paid to be with horses, ride, train, and teach. Horses will still of course be an important and valued part of my life but that is going to change a bit as well. Scary scary scary. I am also continually amazed at God who loves us more than we can fathom. I am reminded every day that His plan for my life is immensly better than what I could have come up with on my own. And I am so grateful that he brings people into our lives when we least expect it and in the craziest of ways. Grateful and happy are the two words to describe right now. Sigh. Sometimes I just laugh thinking about it all, and especially since it's already been proven to me plenty of times that I really have no say in my plan, and God's plan is better anyway. However many times this has been shown to me, I wonder why I still question and worry and doubt. I think this continual tension between what we think is best and what God knows is best is something that doesn't go away no matter how old and wise we think we are... I am so blessed! I only pray I can live my life like those such as my mother who live life with blind faith and taken huge leaps of faith at multiple times during their lives (and I have no doubt will continue to do so). In other news, I am SO SICK OF THE RAIN. I think the weather is teasing us, giving us 4 or 5 hours of amazing sun and then just returning to rain. I am ready for spring/summer to be here yesterday and to no longer have to think of the appropriate 3 or 4 layers to put on for work... Alright, well I am headed out to Peace, but I hope whoever reads this enjoyed a brief update from me. I will leave you with another quote from The Office, "A queen sized bed is five feet wide... I am not five feet wide."- Stanley Hudson